I have been doing pretty good for sometime now, emotion wise. Radiation and cancer in general takes a toll on my mind, spirit, strength, memory, body and so on. I have such a supportive husband and happy kids....but some days are hard. I had radiation, Nplate injections, and a steroid treatment today. I know this is a repeat, but I am worn out and tired of fighting. I will not give up because I know God isn't finished. I know I am healed. This is just a weak day. Last week I failed a memory test. Radiation causes my memory to stink! I make myself about a million notes a day, Jeremiah will text me things so that I wont forget. This makes me feel like I am not a mom or wife....but another one of the kids. I will start a new medication in the next few weeks to help with this. So, we need to pray that it will help me!! With all of that in mind, I dig into the word a lot to hold me up. I found myself pleading with God for my healing....because I need a break.
I will say to the Lord "You are my place of safety & protection. You are my God and I trust you. " God will save you...
He will cover you with His feathers, under His wings you can hide.
His truth will be your shield and protection.
Psalm 91:2-4 NCV
Many of you know that I got a tattoo....yes Dad....sorry..... (just so you all know, he is gonna kill me....but I still love him)
I got the word HEALED small in script on my wrist. This has been a permanent constant reminder that God has promised me that I am healed. I love it, but most importantly, it pulls me out of the depths that the devil tries to push me into. It has also been an amazing ministry tool. It is an out loud promise that I am standing on forever. No matter how tough my days may be. There are a few times in the Bible that it is said "Daughter, your faith has healed you." The verse that has carried me through this season of cancer is Mark 5:34-
"Daughter, your faith has HEALED you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering."
Sometimes we need a reminder.
"He is the Source. Of everything. Strength for your day. Wisdom for your task. Comfort for your soul. Grace for your battle. Provision for each need."