Wisdom, not emotion...

I have said this to several people lately. Wisdom, not emotion....

This can be used in many ways. When it comes to getting your feelings hurt, making changes in your life, reacting to daily issues...you get my point. It helps in a lot of circumstances. But, the most important circumstance in my opinion is your spiritual walk. I have to choose daily to act, walk, live, move, think, and believe in WISDOM, not emotion.
Emotion says I am scared. Emotion says I worry. Emotion says I am alone. Emotion says I am fearful of test results.
Wisdom says I am healed. Wisdom says God has it all figured out. Wisdom says by His wounds I am healed. Wisdom says that I am a daughter of the King. Wisdom says that my Father wants nothing but the best for me. I could go on and on and on!! I don't know about you, but wisdom sounds a whole lot better to me.
Proverbs 8:30-35
Then I (wisdom) was beside Him as a master and director of the work; and I was daily His delight, rejoicing before Him always. Rejoicing in His inhabited earth and delighting in the sons of man. Now listen to me, Oh you sons; blessed are those who keep my ways. Hear my instruction and be wise, and do not refuse or neglect it. Blessed is the man who listens to me, watching daily at my gates, waiting at the post of my door. For whoever finds wisdom finds life and draws forth and obtains favor from the Lord.

I chose wisdom for my day, and days to come.

Tomorrow I have scans and some tests. Please pray for good results!!

And still more fun!

Jonah wanted a gross pumpkin. He said there was too much cute girl stuff at our house....

We all had a blast getting ready for Halloween....and had a little help from our friends in the neighborhood! Our house was craft party central :)

More October Fun!

We had a blast getting ready for Halloween. We went to a Pumpkin Patch....

October Fun

The Mohr's have had a fun month!! I can't believe it is November already! Here are some pictures from our October adventures....

Halloween fun!

We love Halloween!! I was talking with my neighbor this morning about our family time on Halloween. We like to have a fun dinner with spooky finger food. My friend Jen has me hooked on Kraft foods website. They have so many cute kid friendly snack ideas! These mummy pizzas were a hit last year. Take a look around www.kraftrecipes.com for some fun!

http://www.kraftrecipes.com/recipes/mummy-face-pizzas-114029.aspx

God of my tomorrows

I've been thinking a lot about things to come. Newness.

2 weeks ago I had a very bad blood infection. There is no explanation as to how that makes you feel... Let's put it this way, I am pretty tough and have a high pain tolerance, but I was not able to get out of bed for 5 days. I ended up in the emergency room with an idiot for a doctor. 3 IV tries later I had a good IV and antibiotics.

Today, I had radiation, an Nplate injection and steroid treatment. I was off of radiation and treatment for a week after that blood infection. I forgot how the treatments make me feel. I am asked all the time- "How does radiation make you feel?" WAY better than chemo, but still pretty bad. Weak, tired, hurting, rubber, floppy... Going up the stairs to my bedroom becomes climbing a mountain. (sometimes crawling up a mountain) Picking up Jesse Ava becomes heavy weight lifting. I am pretty good at putting a smile on and expressing that I am going to be alright. Truth be told, some days are very hard.

My goal from day one of my cancer battle has been to set an example of faith and strength for my family. The night that I went in to the hospital Jaela had a very hard time. She was in tears all the way to the hospital and all evening until she finally fell asleep. It broke my heart. Every time Joelle prays she says "thank you for making mommy feel better." I have four little precious spectators in my cancer journey. My hope is that when they are faced with tough times, they will remember that God is the God of their tomorrows. He will walk you through tomorrow, just like He got you through yesterday and today.

Psalm 71:14

But I will hope continually, and will yet praise You more and more.

I am super thankful that God is the God of my tomorrows.

I am thankful for newness. I should have 3 more months of radiation and treatment, and then I will be checked every 3 months and so on. I can't wait for that fresh start.

Happy Birthday Jo Jo!!!

Our sweet Joelle turned 3!!! It is crazy to think that if she had been born with clubfeet like we all thought and the sonogram said... We would just now have an evaluation to see if her feet were corrected enough to cut the casts in half for the next 9 months. Wow. We wouldn't get to hug and hold her without her being in pain, and she wouldn't be running around with her brother and sisters. She wouldn't be pushing her baby (Bella) in the stroller or even crawling.... I will never forget the joy of the Dr. handing me each of my children for the first time. I will never forget looking at the faces of the Dr. and nurse as they looked at the sono pictures of mangled and twisted feet. I will never forget the nights I cried myself to sleep thinking about the struggle my daughter had ahead of her, and she hadn't even been born yet. I will never forget asking that people not buy footed pj's for her, or the thought of not being able to really cuddle my sweet girl. I will never forget Dr. Alling rushing Joelle off to be examined right away to see how bad her feet were. I will never forget him jumping up and down yelling "PRAISE GOD!!" when her feet were straight!!!... but most of all I will NEVER forget that my God is a healing God. Now she says "pain no way Jesus. Maman" and stomps on the devil with feet that he tried to mess with... She is an everyday reminder that our God is amazing.

Big fun :)

"Taking it to the streets"

This Sunday, our church took Jesus to the streets of Ft. Bend County. Our group went to four corners and worked on 2 houses for two ladies. They live in trailer houses with no electricity....in Houston!!!...and only one had working plumbing. Man could one of the ladies pray!!

I was chopping down some tall weeds, and heard a meow... There were 2 kittens in the mess. We saved one and found it a new home. The other one ran up in our car engine, and eventually ran off. We had a ton of fun.

Sweet Rich Hubbard

Rich passed away yesterday morning. The tumors took over and caused his kidneys to fail. I am at a loss for words. Pray for his family.

My sweet friend Rich Hubbard is fighting hard. For those of you who don't know- Rich is a family friend, and pastor from England. He was diagnosed with a rare form of cancer last November. My father-in-law connected us several months ago, with the intent of me having someone who understands completely what I am going through, and encouragement.... What I have gained from my relationship with Rich is a mentor. An amazing friendship. A teacher. A laugh. I treasure this man. We talk via email about 3 times a week. Last week, I emailed to let him know about my blood infection, and to ask how he was feeling. He didn't reply. This morning, I heard from his wonderful wife(Lynda)that he has been in the hospital all week with high amounts of potassium in his blood and has been having seizures. His tumors have gotten to such a high number that they are taking over his body, and he is in so much pain.
Needless to say, I have been in tears since 3am, when I heard from Lynda. I am trying my hardest to stay away from the WHY WHY WHY????!!! Just last week my "teammate" Don Burk lost his battle with cancer. I saw his smiling face and a big hug every Sunday. He would remind me every time I saw him that he was on my team against this stupid cancer. All of that said...

A friend on Facebook posted this for me to read-
"An apple tree will produce apples because of what it is. When it is young, it will have no apples; but it still must say, 'I am an apple tree.' When it is winter & there are no leaves or apples, it still says, 'I am an apple tree.' Is it lying at those times? No. It would be lying to say anything different (see Rom. 4:16-17)."

I Am A God Who Heals.
I heal broken bodies, broken minds, broken hearts, broken lives, and broken relationships. My very Presence has immense healing powers. You cannot live close to Me without experiencing some degree of healing. However, it is also true that you have not because you ask not. You receive the healing that flows naturally from My Presence, whether you seek it or not. But there is more-much more-available to those who ask.

The first step in receiving healing is to live ever so close to Me. The benefits of this practice are too numerous to list. As you grow more and more intimate with Me, I reveal My will to you more directly. When the time is right, I prompt you to ask for healing of some brokenness in you or in another person. The healing may be instantaneous, or it may be a process. That is up to Me. Your part is to trust Me fully and to thank Me for the restoration that has begun.

I rarely heal all the brokenness in a person's life. Even My servant Paul was told, "My grace is sufficient for you." when he sought healing for the thorn in his flesh. Nonetheless, much healing is available to those whose lives are intimately interwoven with Me. Ask, and you will receive.

Psalm 103:3 3 who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases

James 4:2 (KJV) 2Ye lust, and have not: ye kill, and desire to have, and cannot obtain: ye fight and war, yet ye have not, because ye ask not.

2 Corinthians 12:7-9 7To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. 8Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. 9But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.

Matthew 7:7 7"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.

Please pray for Rich and Lynda Hubbard and their kids, Lois Burk, and me.
Rich says keep fighting. I am going to beat this cancer for my team.

Broken heart

My heart is heavy for a family here that lost their 3 year old girl today. She drown in a family swimming pool. I cannot imagine the hurt of losing a child. This situation has brought back a lot of emotions and feelings from 1997. Sweet Justin Aaron. The hurt from losing a family member never leaves completely. I counted myself a part of the Raburn family....and still do. I lost so very many people in my life that year, but a baby???! I never will have answers as to why, and hate when people say that God needed a new angel. Blah. While searching for the right things to pray over this family, God put Psalms 107:29 in my mind. I looked it up.

Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble, and He brought them out of their distress. He stilled the storm to a whisper; the waves of the seas were hushed. They were glad when it grew calm, and He guided them to their desired haven. Let them give thanks to the Lord for His unfailing love and His wonderful deeds for men! Let them exalt Him in the assembly of the people and praise Him in the council of the elders.

I pray for God to whisper and clam this family. Please pray for the Hendrix/Ortega families. Remember to praise Him in the storm.

Strength.

How amazing is it, that God- the one who created the entire earth- gives us strength and power?

I have been praying for a dear friend named Rich. He lives in England, has an awesome family, amazing ministry, and cancer. They have done all the treatment they can do, with no change in the physical. I am not sure how I would react to being in that situation. I have used quotes from him before and talked about his encouragement, but his strength is the most amazing thing. There is nothing more for Dr.s to do....but he is still so strong.
Jesus tells us over and over in the Bible to be strong and courageous, put your hopes in the Lord, do not fear...and so on. Easier said than done, but He repeats it time and time again. Must be important. Example, our electricity went out the other night during a storm. We held our kids and told them- no worries. We are here together, we are safe, and it will all be ok. They fully trusted us. Now, they may have held tight to us, but they were ok. The trust that they showed is the trust we as children of God need to have.
In daily battles, emotional battles, financial battles, family battles, job battles, spiritual battles, or health battles, we need to remember where our strength comes from. I can't imagine being Moses. Walking up to a sea and having faith in the strength that God gave me to part the water. Or, David. Facing a giant, and having faith in the strength that God gave me to defeat him. I can think of several more... We are strong in the Lord. period. He will get us through whatever mountain we face. Now that is something to be thankful for.



"It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect. He makes my feet like the feet of a deer; he enables me to stand on the heights. He trains my hands for battle; my arms can bend a bow of bronze. You give me your shield of victory, and your right hand sustains me; you stoop down to make me great. You broaden the path beneath me, so that my ankles do not turn."
Psalm 18:32-36

Rough day.

I have been doing pretty good for sometime now, emotion wise. Radiation and cancer in general takes a toll on my mind, spirit, strength, memory, body and so on. I have such a supportive husband and happy kids....but some days are hard. I had radiation, Nplate injections, and a steroid treatment today. I know this is a repeat, but I am worn out and tired of fighting. I will not give up because I know God isn't finished. I know I am healed. This is just a weak day. Last week I failed a memory test. Radiation causes my memory to stink! I make myself about a million notes a day, Jeremiah will text me things so that I wont forget. This makes me feel like I am not a mom or wife....but another one of the kids. I will start a new medication in the next few weeks to help with this. So, we need to pray that it will help me!! With all of that in mind, I dig into the word a lot to hold me up. I found myself pleading with God for my healing....because I need a break.

I will say to the Lord "You are my place of safety & protection. You are my God and I trust you. " God will save you...
He will cover you with His feathers, under His wings you can hide.
His truth will be your shield and protection.
Psalm 91:2-4 NCV

Many of you know that I got a tattoo....yes Dad....sorry..... (just so you all know, he is gonna kill me....but I still love him)
I got the word HEALED small in script on my wrist. This has been a permanent constant reminder that God has promised me that I am healed. I love it, but most importantly, it pulls me out of the depths that the devil tries to push me into. It has also been an amazing ministry tool. It is an out loud promise that I am standing on forever. No matter how tough my days may be. There are a few times in the Bible that it is said "Daughter, your faith has healed you." The verse that has carried me through this season of cancer is Mark 5:34-

"Daughter, your faith has HEALED you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering."

Sometimes we need a reminder.
"He is the Source. Of everything. Strength for your day. Wisdom for your task. Comfort for your soul. Grace for your battle. Provision for each need."
-Jack Hayford

2010 family pics

I am so happy with our new family pics!! My awesome friend Jen took them at a park near our house. I love them!! Here are a few. More to come :o)

Mother's Day!!!!!

I am very thankful for my Mom!!!! And very thankful for my mother-in-law!!! For Mother's Day, Jeremiah and my awesome friend Jen took the kids to the park and took pictures. They held up the letters M O M and a heart.... I hope to get them on a CD soon so I can show them off. Hint hint Jen. :o) I love love love them!!

We love our Memaw and our Grams!!!! Happy Mother's Day!

sprinkler park!

We had some fun at the sprinkler park. :o)

catching up on pics

School Walk

Jaela's school had their walk this weekend. Jesse Ava loves hats!! Jaela's class had to represent Costa Rica.... Fun!

The backyard and a fun week

We have had so much going on in the past few weeks! Our friend Josh Drew came to visit. We put his gifts to work!! He owns a construction company, and offered to help us with a few things around the house. We all know how much of a handy man Jeremiah is.... His gifts are not in that area!! Our deck was looking bad. Some of the wood was rotten and broken. We

also had some siding that needed to be replaced, and Josh came to our rescue with a bunch of tools! It looks so nice! I love love love hearing Jeremiah and Josh sing and play the guitar. Josh is amazing on the piano and played with Jeremiah on Sunday. Our kids adore Josh! He and his wife Natalie are expecting...and I know they will be amazing parents. We love them! We are so very blessed to have such great friends. Makes me miss North Texas!! I have enjoyed having our Sugar Land world meet our north Texas world! We are blessed all the way around.

Reunited and it feels so good..........

Jaela, Jonah, and Joelle were excited to hear the ice cream truck in our neighborhood on Friday. And so it begins.... I am sure they will be by our house a lot this summer! Even Princess and Lilly were excited.

We are in the process of laying new grass in our backyard. Man is it WORK! Our neighbor has been so awesome to help with the dirty work. The grass was delivered at 3:00 AM!!!

Today, our friend Josh will be here. He is an old friend of Jeremiah's. He will be playing keys with Jeremiah and the worship team... we are in for a ton of fun during his visit!

Jaela's birthday present.

Meet ~Lilly Bell~

Happy Birthday to Jesse Ava and Jaela Lauren!!